Wow its been a long time since I've been on here. Who has time to blog???? Its been tough just to find the time to do everyday things. *sigh* :-) I'll try to do better.
Life sure has changed since I was last on here. I was so full of dreams and aspirations. And then reality came crashing down around me.
My running career came to a screeching halt. I developed a baker's cyst for the thousandth time. (No I don't have a tendency to exaggerate.) It prevented me from reaching some of those major goals. My doctor recommended taking it very easy. She actually thinks I shouldn't be a runner. Psshht! Guess that medical school doesn't teach you everything. So I had to slow down. I did take some time off to keep my knee elevated. Then I tried to ease back in by walking and doing some Wii Zumba.
I also found a new love. INSANITY!!!! Ohmygoodnessgracious is that a work out and a half! The day I finally completed my first full workout was amazing. I think I was more proud of that than any other workout achievement. Just when I felt good enough to get back to running, my life changed.
Auto-immune disease: what does that mean anyways??? Can anyone explain it??? (The answer to that question is a resounding NO!) I received the diagnosis that I've probably needed since 2005: Crohn's disease.
Ok, in all reality, its not a death sentence. Its not cancer. Its not AIDS. Its not MS. Its something that I can totally live with. But for a short time, I wasn't sure I wanted to. I'll spare you all the incredibly yucky, incredibly embarrassing details. But its truly something that, while it impacts my life, it won't end it. At least not yet. Yes, while I'm currently in a flare-up, its not the worst flare-up I've ever had. But wow did it change things.
I can't quite put into words what its done to me. Or even what its done to my husband. And honestly, no one wants to hear someone else whine and complain. So I'm done. This is my new reality. This is my life. Its time to deal. So here I go. Time to get back on the wagon. I walked 2 miles on Tuesday. Woohoo! I am so not ready to run yet. But just being out there gave me that desire, stoked that fire. And I'm ready to go.
This is my brand shiny new world. Its not what I ever imagined, dreamed, or wanted. I was destined for great things, and even greater happiness. But its not coming my way. But that's life. Its time to buck up, suck it up, and run like the wind.
